stormy weather

i can’t figure out if it’s a) the dreary fall in the pacific northwest, b) missing my family as they’re all in guatemala together for the thanksgiving holiday, or c) just not feeling very cordial towards my life at the moment… but all i can think about today are those words. words that melted like threads of cotton candy, vaporizing in an instant under a hint of rain. in the end… i’m worse off than if they’d never been spoken. they didn’t mean anything at all to the author and meanwhile, i’d been hanging on every syllable.

and my arms ache, from holding on

enough. my arms and my heart are tired.