(slightly) discouraged

so... i'm having a great time.

my friend heather is in from mississippi, and we're going to take a rockin' roadtrip this weekend down to see the redwoods. pictures to come, i'm sure.

however (and this is the short version) i'm feeling kinda crappy right now. while packing and re-packing some of my junk tonight, i came across my old journals. for kicks, i read some of the pages... i used to journal constantly, almost daily, and i haven't barely at all since february of last year.

it was hard, reading this stuff from just 2 years ago. 2 years- but it feels like a lifetime. i was so delusional, and that's hard to realize how far off my perception was from reality. gosh. i feel like a baby, like i'm just starting out right at this very moment, and while that's refreshing in one sense, it's also discouraging because there was just SO MUCH.

anywho. trying to not get too lost in my thoughts. i just wish it had been different.