what's the worst that can happen?

i've been trying hard.

damn hard.

and still... this one thing isn't working out too well for me.

this one, kind of "big deal" kind of thing.

ummmmma ummmmmma ummmmmma umm.

last night in talking with someone about this topic, i asked for prayers about today's exam.

i told him, "it's not like i'm afraid to fail at this thing... i just have to survive, for at least a year."

well, guess what i figured out?

i think i am afraid to fail.

i've had people left and right telling me, "you'll be great at no matter what you do!" and "you're so smart, you're so _____! you're so ____!"

ha. well, guess what. some days, i'm not. and maybe i'll fail. that's looking like a distinct possibility.

maybe by some miracle i won't :)

but if i do, what's the worst that can happen?

let me tell you.

i take my kitty

pack my bags

and forgetaboutit.

moving was still a good choice, this i know.

and as to all the other details, God will take care of me. His ways are not my ways.